Tonight I'm going to a Lunapads circle or some such. I'm not entirely sure what it's all about, but I know it isn't school related! :)
Tuesday afternoon is our last cadaver lab. Friday morning is my clinical class test. It's multiple choice, matching and true and false. This means all I need to do is read over the notes and the slides a number of times so the info is in my brain, but I don't have to regurgitate it. I LOVE tests where they give you the answer and all you have to do is pick out the right answer. I do fairly well on these types of tests.
I realize knowing the material inside and out is imperative to my MW practice. I will know it, but I don't have to know it perfectly now. So I can let go of perfectionism for this term and trust the process. I do have moments of being uncertain as to whether or not I will ever be a midwife; whether or not I will actually know what I need to know. I have been thinking, "Why did I think I wanted to do this? Was it really my ego?" Karen reminds me I will be good at this; oh yeah, I will....it's just the getting there.
One foot in front of the other....with lots of rest ;) For now.